|Alvin Pang at Daunt Books Event|
I met Alvin when I recently attended a presentation highlighting Singaporean books at Daunt Books in Chelsea to hang out with SCBWI Singapore friends. I came away with a very plain blue book published by the Croatian publisher Nakladnik, a translation of Singaporean poet Alvin Pang's Other Things and Other Poems (Druge stvari i ostale pjesme). The Business of Writing appeared in the collection.
... Had you known the risks, the intractable
doubts, law, even psychiatry would've seemed less
daunting, the nightly challenge simply one of looking
up the right book, then nodding sagely at your clients,
as you ring it up by the hour. Instead, you face
the dense smoke of a thousand plausibilities
befogging the page, so many others gathering
in wait as you clear the air with one firm choice
This is exactly how I feel right now. Like I'm facing the dense smoke of a thousand plausibilities, at the same time wondering if I really had it in me to make it happen. I get that dense smoke every time I sit down to write and it takes a huge effort to stop rubbing my eyes and get on with laying words on the page.
... No, if there's
solace to be found in the business of writing,
it will not be here, fighting to hear yourself speak,
nor in the thunder of applause, if it comes. Consider
yourself blessed, if a while afterwards, you feel delivered
from something not quite understood, possibly
illegal and almost certainly dangerous. Your heart
whispering faster than usual; the chill air and rain
stinging less lightly than before.
Alvin likens the business of writing to 'your first ... and any other night on the stage'. It sure is.
The Business of Writing by Alving Pang ... (discovered in Other Things and Other Poems published by Nakladnik) -- go to this page to read the whole lovely thing.